WeLComE TO -FrItZ- JoInT

2nd Anniversary

2011-08-29T23:35:00.002+10:00

It's been two years since you left us. It's been really difficult for the whole family but we've moved on. We've shown great positives in whatever we do. We miss your smile and how you bring joy to everyone. I know you are always by our side. We pray that you continue to give us blessings and guidance for our future. Mummy, we love you very much!

Updates

2011-08-04T21:54:00.003+10:00

Finally after almost 2 months, I have found a slight inspiration to blog. This is going to be a short post anyway because there is just not much things to rant about. Well for one, CIty2Surf is in 10 days' time. How have I prepared? It's really difficult because we are currently experiencing winter and it's no ordinary winter I must say. Rain comes and goes, wind can blow up to 100km/hr, even the sun plays tricks on our delicate skin. So many excuses, so little time. I bought myself a pair of nike shoes and marinaded my feet into them for almost a week now. They felt really comfortable and I'm quite confident that this pair will last me at least a year. I also pushed myself to run around the neighbourhood for the very first time in months last Tuesday. I was actually quite surprised that I was still able to maintain my endurance levels. I'm guessing that badminton does help in some ways. But anyhow, I ran a total of 6.7km in 35mins which is nowhere near the 14kms half marathon next coming Sunday. Today however, I managed to rack up 7.7kms in 40mins. A slight improvement but I will expect a daunting task of facing an uphill battle midway through the run. The bright side that I can foresee has to be the fact that I was entered into a competitive group. We are called the 'Panadol Rapid' group which would start second, 10minutes after those invited runners. The winner finished the race in 43mins. 2 years ago I completed the race in 79mins. I hope to better in a notch this time around. Wish me luck everyone!

Happy Birthday Baby

2011-06-14T21:09:00.002+10:00

Spent like forever making this. It's not perfect but I just want you to know that I will always be there for you. Always look on the bright side and good things will come. Never ever hide that beautiful smile of yours. I love you

Happy 21st birthday Darling. Will give you lots of love when I see you teehee ^^

Dear Mummy

2011-05-30T19:49:00.003+10:00

Before I end my first and last post of May, I would like to take this opportunity to dedicate this to my loving mummy. She turned 54 last Friday and I am very sure that she's having the time of her life up in heaven. I can imagine her karaokeing her lungs out and spreading her beautiful voice all over the world. It has to be the biggest birthday celebration ever. Massive cakes all over, balloons and angels floating everywhere, white fluffy cotton-like clouds moving through the breeze just under the mighty sun. I hope you had a wonderful time up there but at the same time I know you were by our family's side the whole time. We felt your presence as always and we pray that you continue to give us your blessings and lead us onto the right paths. We missed you so so much. Your laughs, your charm, your happy-go-lucky character, and of course your undying love for your family. I wish you were still here to see us grow first hand. See your sons take matter into their own hands, see them handle stressful moments, and overcome barriers in life. Daddy is so proud of us right now and I know you can see it. Mummy, please come back home okay? at least pay daddy a visit once in awhile. His bedside is just so empty without you on it. Do keep him company every now and then. Maybe whisper some things when he's not noticing. Give him signs and motivate him always. We miss you very much.

And before I forget, let me just dedicate this medal to you. I won men's singles Runner-Up in Badminton last Saturday. Thank you for being there for me. I Love You...

One with her

2011-04-28T20:12:00.009+10:00

This post marks our first year together as a couple. I am having the time of my life and I couldn't have asked for more. She's been by my side no matter what happens. She has put up with everything I do good or bad. Her undying support, care and love have kept me going despite some hard times at work, at home and also motivating myself when I'm alone. That I really appreciate most. I have no regrets meeting this wonderful piece of God's creation. I am so glad that I chose her. Without doubt, she's the most beautiful person in every single aspect. The least I can offer is to love her with my big big heart and provide her with a sense of security. Baby, you know I'll be there for you...

Did I mention that it was such a coincidence that these two lovely aunties were actually good good friends of my mummy? In fact, one of them is actually my gf's housemate's mom! Small small world I'd say. I had to make the trip to Sydney just to see them for myself. Good thing it was also Easter so we had the long weekend until Tuesday. Baby and I went clubbing the night before the whole family went for a Yum Cha session the very next morning.

Anyway, I would like to express again how special this weekend was. I had planned months ago for this road trip. Luckily everything goes according to plan. First stop was Nelson Bay for the Dolphins Watch, and then 2hours drive up North to Forster hoping to greet the beautiful beaches over Pacific Palms with lots and lots of sun and relaxation. I must say we were not disappointed at all! We couldn't have asked for more.

*Met some friends along the way*

*Love*

We had a very simple but romantic dinner at home that night. I already had eyes on this particular Italian shop that sells one of the best pizza in town. We ordered a takeaway, got a few bags of chips, couple of drinks and watched 'He's Just Not That Into You'. Lovely....

We had our favourite coffee breakfast the next day. This cafe by the beach called 20x12 is not too bad. A little pricey but I guess that's what happens when you are actually dining in a beach resort. With the sun shining so brightly, I couldn't care less how much our meals cost. We just can't wait to head down to the beach and relax. We exposed ourselves to as much heat as possible and engulfed in an orgasmic state. That was the moment we have been waiting for, the sense of no pressure, no worries, no annoyance.

*Best thing is that I get to spend every second of it with my beautiful girlfriend*

*We visited the lake as well. Very very pretty*

*Some happy campers on Easter*

*Afternoon snack yumssss*

And then the night we have been waiting for, fine dining on our first year anniversary at a beach resort. The Kingfisher Cafe as they called it. Food was exquisite and ambience was very refreshing.

*Couple of the night*

*Two is Better than One*

*Exactly one year ago I proposed*

I love you baby, and I know you love me too........

*Red Hot Couple*

*Seal Rocks for a quickie*

And then back to the best fish and chips a town can offer. Good food equals one very very happy girlfriend. I love seeing just how that smile of hers tend to sparkle everytime.

I promise you I will make everything count. Thank you for the wonderful gift. You complete me. I love you baby, and I will say these words today, tomorrow, next year and more years to come.

Darling, you will always be in my heart forever...

Glee - Get It Right

2011-04-07T23:18:00.002+10:00

What have I done
I wish I could run away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is, on my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh how many times will it take for me
To get it right
To get it right

Can I start again
With my faith shaken,
Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay
And face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser, I'll get through this

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh how many times will it take for me
To get it right

So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth
That sometimes life isn't fair

I'll send out a wish and I'll send out a prayer
And finally someone will see
How much I care

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh how many times will it take

To get it right
To get it right

Bao Bei

2011-03-17T20:58:00.004+11:00

This girl means a lot to me. We've known each other for a year already and look at what we have achieved. A year filled with lots of love and affection for one another. I can say that I have never regret knowing her. She has been my backbone in everything I do. I try my best to be the bestest boyfriend I can be and in return, she gives me everything I have dreamed off, genuine love.
Baby, I am very much in love with you. I believe our love has blossomed over these months and I know there is so much things installed for us in the near future. I wanna grow old with you. Your smile just brings me joy everytime I see them. Let us make use our time spent together to the fullest. Nothing can break us apart. We will overcome any barriers and hardships together, I promise you.
May we be filled with lots of happiness till no end. May we be blessed to not go through any fights nor arguments. May we be put in situations where misunderstandings are unheard of. May we enjoy big breakfasts and egg benedicts in local cafes.
May we have memories of everlasting love together. May we just forget all of the bad times. May we support each other in any other way. May change for the better of our relationship. May we let our true colors shine on us everytime. May we live our lives to the fullest. May we expand our love over the horizon and not stop. May we believe in all good things to come. Baby, I genuinely love you.

One year into Forever...

Turning 25

2011-03-15T20:09:00.006+11:00

I just turned 25 about 10 days ago. Have been pretty busy lately so haven't got much things to rant about. But I can confidently say that my birthday was the best thing that happened this year. Although I do not get much parties and celebrations, turning 25 has to be the best thing ever. I got to spend some quality time with my beautiful girlfriend. We had planned to go to a strip club after much discussion. I thought it was a good idea to try out something different rather than the typical stay at home you do your thing, I do my thing thingy. Anyway, we were not even slightly disappointed. Bada Bing has great dancers, cozy environment, excellent music and wonderful service. We will definitely drag more friends over next time. Anyhow, that's the not the most exciting thing to have happened.

As usual I took the first train after work on a Friday evening, reached Central station around 8 and head straight to the gf's place. Boy, am I in for a surprise. The door was left ajar and there weren't any lights. I entered with a whispering Hello and out came my girlfriend and a birthday cake. There were candles, the big 25, and even a video recording. For once I was blown away and couldn't say a word. I was just speechless and didn't imagine somebody would go through the trouble to do this for me. I love you baby. I made a wish and blew out the candle.
We took a couple of photos with the housemates as well but I think they were more interested in the caramel mudcake than me LOL. Anyway, the surprise did not end. Baby took the liberty to prepare 3 fantastic home cooked dishes. It was superb! It was also the first time she'd cooked for me. I was extremely touched for the amount of effort and love she has put in.
The tofu with minced pork tasted exactly how mummy used to cook. The stir fry Kailan was excellent but nothing beats the Pork ribs soup. It was full of flavor, rich in spices, lots of ingredients and at the same time maintaining its simplicity of being homemade. She fed me till my stomach was satisfied. I am just so thankful to have someone like her by my side. We had a slice of cake to share as well and it was fucking awesome. The caramel icing on top fits perfectly with the rich sponge cake in the middle coated with chocolate on the sides. I couldn't ask for more, but I did it anyway haha. But before I could say thank you for everything, she hit me with another surprise, PRESENTS!
I don't even remember when was the last time someone has actually given me presents on my birthday. That Braun Buffel wallet was brought all the way from Taiwan when my girlfriend was having her holidays. The fresh smell of leather meant that it must have cost her a fortune. Yet again I don't remember if anyone has actually bought me something that expensive before. Thank you baby! Not to mention the wonderful card she wrote to me. Of course I am not going to reveal the contents, but it did reduce me to tears. I love you Darling...

We went to our favourite Korean Restaurant in Sydney, Arisun for dinner the next day. We got the usual; Sausage hotpot, spicy fried chicken and a jug of lemonade soju. Both of us have been craving for these dishes for more than 5 months but we couldn't have eaten the whole lot, could we? A close friend of us joined us shortly to help out with the massive feast.
Night was young, so we we spend most of our time and money at the strip club. We had the best time ever. I wanna thank you for all you have done. You are my beloved. You are my rock. You are my motivation. I love you just the way you are...
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I even got a little surprise from one of our favourite places to be, Mamak. We dined in for free in celebrating my birthday.
Oh yeah, two ice cream BALLS and roti Pisang for dessert, slurpssss!!!!

Setting Priorities

2011-02-20T22:51:00.002+11:00

Dear Fritz,

It's time for a serious talk, just you and me. Although two months has almost passed since the turn of the year, you have to set some priorities straight. Year 2010 just flew by at a snap of a finger. Luckily it ended well. Didn't recall much disappointments but even if there were, more positives would come out of them. Anyway it's a brand new year and there are much things to anticipate. As you know by now, you are already a month and a half into your PhD. Holy Fuck Fritz, you're doing a PhD??? Okay, as long as you're happy then I'm happy. But of course there are times when you do get stressed and all, please don't hesitate to contact your inner self to find inspiration. You do have a girlfriend, don't you? Please seek lots of love and care from her and do return the favor 100x extra. There is always a fine tune in life. It depends if you can see the opportunity, grasp it and execute. If not, then you're in deep shit. You must foresee yourself say in 5 years time what you would be doing with your life. Hey, you're not getting any younger. Fucking 25 years old this year mate. Maturity has always been part of you since young. Live life to the fullest. There is always highs and lows, so try not to beat yourself up too much. It's not good in terms of health and confidence. Set a goal, place a bet, get a little risky and explore all the goodness of the world. And when you stumble across haters or negativity, just put them aside and move forward. Fuck all those things that are bringing you down. Pick yourself up and get back on track with your priorities. So please Fritz, it is time for you to close your eyes, think and examine the next steps to take. I personally haven't got much experience but I try to look all things in a positive manner. Good Luck my friend...

Your inner self,
Fritz

Happy Valentine's Day

2011-02-15T23:14:00.002+11:00

*Love Yiu Darling*

3/2/2011

2011-02-03T00:26:00.002+11:00

Happy Chinese New Year Everybody!!!!
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Okay its time for me to get back to preparing my presentation for tomorrow. Yeah I'm so pathetic LOL

Interesting??? hmmmm

2011-01-24T15:09:00.000+11:00

Quality dating

The things to look for in a partner

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There are certain qualities that people look for in men when they are dating. They look for things that they have in common, physical attraction, positive traits or ambitions. Some women have lists as long as their arms, making that search for their perfect guy all the more harder and ranging from the obvious to the outrageous. Here are some of the things that we think are good qualities for men to have.

Someone with a job shows that they are responsible and willing to work hard for the things they want. A person who pursues a profession they are interested in and enjoy is much more preferable than someone who’d prefer to be a slob or do nothing all day. It also means that they will be able to provide.

An ambitious person indicates that they want things from life, that they have the drive to get them which is closely associated with motivation. Even if it is just personal achievement, ambition is about a desire to live and having a goal and a dream and wanting to achieve them. In the words of singer Pear Bailey “a man without ambition is dead.”

Being caring is a trait that everyone should want in a partner and by this we mean someone who really cares about how their actions makes someone feel. Someone who is empathic will care about feeling; especially yours. You want to care for your other and not 100 per cent from you and nothing in return.

Having a sense of humor is not only a very attractive quality, but being able to laugh in certain situations or at yourself and to put people at ease shows that you don’t take life too seriously. It is something that can improve a relationship, help us over the hurdles in life, uplifts people and shows people they can have a good time.

Someone who has gone through school and come out the other end better off, is far more attractive than someone who dropped out. Someone who dropped out only shows to people that they have no desire but that they give up on things and when that comes to bigger commitments, that’s the last thing you want.

Respect is important in a relationship and comes hand in hand with love. Someone that respects your views, thoughts, space, dreams and ambitions is someone to hang onto. Being considerate is about thinking about others and an extremely good trait to have. Inconsiderate people are thoughtless and usually selfish.

To have someone that supports what you do and who is there for you is also important. We don’t mean financially, but in a relationship, a couple emotionally support and help each other every day, through the good times and the bad. It show’s they’ll be there for you, by your side, in whatever decisions you make together.

Year two zero one one

2011-01-16T14:56:00.003+11:00

I write this entry today in welcoming you to the year 2011. It was indeed a great 2010 filled with mixed emotions. I will always look back on those great memories as motivations to improve myself as a person. On the other hand, all those fucked up moments are meant to be forgotten and left in the past. It is already mid January and the only thing I can think of right now is my one and only. She made a huge impact in my life and there are no one word adjective that is able to describe her. My life for the past 24 years have been in yoyo fashion. As quickly as the light at the end of the tunnel drew ever so close, it was yet again engulfed in total darkness. There are just so many beautiful things out there yet to be explored. I would like to see everything discretely. Throughout my life experiences, I have met and dealt the shits in life. I can read people's intentions more easily by their body language, responses and even speech. I would be lying if I say I'm perfect. But I'm pretty confident in judging people these days.That being said, I would like to introduce to you my girlfriend. I thought to myself and realized that I haven't actually talked about her. Of course I did mention her in the previous posts but describing her? not quite.

Anyway, it all started early last year. If you think there is such thing called love at first sight, then you better fucking kill yourself. We met very randomly actually. There weren't any motives. I was quite a successful bachelor if you considered having a full time job as successful. We met at one of my mate's apartment in Sydney. A good friend of mine had to drop of her bag at the place before heading off for a movie. I was still half asleep then, so I only gave a quick hi and off they went. Later in the evening when the two girls returned, we spent some time at the balcony for a few drinks. I took a shower and got changed in my mate's room. The balcony was separated from the room by a translucent sliding door so it was still visible. I was putting on my top when I noticed cheeky laughters and two heads peeking through. Yes baby, I did not forget what you did that day hehe. Of course I'm not blaming the gals at the balcony. I just don't give a fuck and live life freely. I joined them shortly and we chatted, introduced each other, continue talking crap. That is when I came across her name as JiYan.

Remember how I got your number, baby? Just before you sent us off at the door, I said gimme your number just in case got any plans then can contact u. How lame...My weekends in Sydney were pretty routine. Alcohols, dinners and clubs. JiYan and I dated for a while. It was really awkward because she was so quiet. I had to make up small talks until the humorous side of me took over. Lang Jing Dit la Fritz Lai. We went on a couple of dates and movies later and realized there is something special about this girl. She is smart and pretty. A good listener but very indecisive. She puts everyone ahead before her which in my opinion can be good and bad. A very hardworking person who deserves lots of credit. Caring and very emotional. Somehow her personality sparkles in front of me. I am not guys easily attracted by a mega hot model with big breasts and short skirts. Importantly, it is the inside that counts. I am looking for someone who can appreciate and love me for who I am. I won't ask for more.

I decided to make her my girlfriend on the 26th of April 2010. Months have passed, we are having the times of our lives. Everytime we go out, I feel like a brand new person. I feel like as though we were on our first date. I pray that our love bond continues to shine. I will never ever give up hope. Have faith darling. Thank you for loving me and making me the luckiest guy on Earth.

*I Love You*

End of Work 2010

2010-12-04T06:02:00.003+11:00

My Break officially starts today. Although I am still working at Perth International Airport, I am please to say that things have been going well for me. My second paper has just been officially published in Clinical Cancer Research or here. I am so proud to be the co-first author of this paper and can't wait to make myself up the ladder to be the first author. That being said, communication is key when it comes to work. I really need to build a good relationship with my bosses in order to be successful in future. Sometimes it is hard to understand what the boss want. You try really hard to explain what is happening but he doesn't seem to listen. In this case you can only shut your mouth and take in what you've learned. I've gained a lot of experience so far but it is never enough. At times like these you really need motivation and full support from your loved ones. Thankfully I have my gf who is always there for me. She gives me great confidence in what I have to offer and I thank her for that. Friends are important too, but sometimes you would think to yourself, are they real or not? I have seen enough to be certain of what are genuine and those that would fuck you up. Anyhow I am just ranting because I have another 3 hours before my flight leaves for Kuala Lumpur. I have been working the whole morning at the airport as well. I do pray that my bosses understand that I have lots to offer in this research industry. It really kills me when he accused me of something that I didn't do and all I can say is sorry. Fingers crossed that he will be in a good mood tomorrow. After writing this, I realised that its a Saturday. May they read my email and get back to me as soon as possible. Wish me luck! Signing off from Perth International Airport

Sunshine Coast

2010-11-20T18:36:00.014+11:00

A four days break was what the both of us really need especially pouring our hearts and soul into what we do best. Studies, assignments, work, presentation and more. After such a hectic year, it was right for us to get away from all these form of stressful activities. Not to mention dealing with all kinds of shitty people around who are self-centered and those who can't handle jealousy when seeing either of us succeed. To those two-faced devils, FUCK OFF!

Now that I'm feeling better, let me just summarize our trip to the Sunshine Coast. We had yum cha at Zilver Restaurant before heading to the airport. We were very excited as we were leaving for a place without worries, disturbances and any forms of distractions. It was an evening flight and with their time zone an hour earlier, we had plenty of time to scout around. Of course I did my homework to find out some of their tourist attractions.

*Had Rocklea snack in the plane yums*

On arrival, we took a pre-booked shuttle bus to Osprey Apartments. The view was fucking awesome! It is fully equipped with almost everything one home could have. And yes, I referred it to home. We took heaps of photos of the decor but these are some of the best ones. We took a stroll into the city and it is definitely unlike Newcastle. Shops were open till late. There wee so many friendly faces. Families with prams and children can be spotted almost everywhere. Indeed, this is a place to be if you crave for relaxation. We decided to have dinner early because we were starving from the morning Dim Sum. I read a couple of reviews online and decided to try The Surf Club. I must say that we were really impressed. It wasn't pricey at all and the portions were huge. Satisfaction guaranteed!

*My Beautiful Date*

*Favourite Beer, Pure Blond*

We also had a few rounds at the slot machine and decided to donate $10 there HAHA. It was good fun and then we head back for much needed rest winks. It was an early morning the very next day as we had to catch the courtesy shuttle bus to Australia zoo. We had big breakfast at the nearby cafe and then made our way to the zoo. It was fucking awesome! We had a blast there looking at those cute animals and extraordinary performances. If it's not because of the late Steve Irwin, we wouldn't have such fun up to date. Thank you Crocodile Hunter, CRIKEY! We were pretty much drained on the way back but we dropped by Coles to grab some groceries for dinner and breakfast the next day.

*Chicken Kebabs and Potato wedges with sour cream and sweet chilli for dinner*

*Pork Sausages and Ham & Cheese on Turkish bread for breakfast*

Day 3 spelled wet & wild on our things to do list. Again, I've pre-booked a liquid getaway tour. Thankfully, we were the only passengers so it looked as if we chartered the whole boat. How nice teehee. Anyway the boat ride was really exciting. Our Captain Brett from South Africa brought us around the river with lots of amazing houses valued up to tens of millions of Australian dollars. He even brought us to Steve Irwin's family house. There he showed us his boat where he was killed too. After the guided tour, he ramped up his boat to 30 knots and before you know it, we were at sea. And apparently he saw a real life shark! Not a big one, but enough to make me shit in my pants, not literally of course.
This is a definite must to try when you're at the Sunshine Coast. We were also treated to such an awesome weather. We didn't wanna leave! Next stop was The Underwater World! Yet again, we used to express lane as we had already booked them. It is not as big as Sydney Aquarium but you just gotta love the animal performances, sooooo cuteeeeee.....

*That is one ugly crawly creature LOL*

We spent only a couple of hours there and decided to go back to the apartment for an afternoon snack. When the evening was slightly cooler, we head down to the beach for a little stroll. There were plenty of photos taken again, but I'm not posting all of them duhhh.

*I Love You*

Earlier Brett recommended us the best seafood place in Sunshine Coast. His own words, "The Deck has the best seafood in Sunshine Coast because their seafood are fresh fresh fresh fresh fresh!" hahahaha. True enough we weren't a bit disappointed. We had a feast of seafood and went home extremely satisfied.

*The love of my life*

*Coffee for supper hehe*

Our final day was a slow, take it easy walk at the mall. We even watched 'Skyline' at the movies. It was surprisingly good actually. We also had some rare snacks only found there. I almost choked at one stage because I was too greedy consuming all of it at once haha

*Baked potato with sour cream, cheese and bacon ORGAZMIK*

*Crispy Pork Skin, mouth watering!*

I end this post with a smile on my face. We had a blast and its all worth it especially spending time with the girl I love most. It just bring us that much closer and I do feel that our love bond grows ever much stronger. Thank you baby for loving me. I cherish every second spent with you.

*Rose for you, baby*

It's been a great week

2010-11-11T22:06:00.002+11:00

My supervisor finally got his Fellowship. That means he'll have funds to run his big lab for the rest of his life
Our Clinical Cancer Research paper has been accepted for publishing in approximately 4-8 weeks. I was listed as co-first author
I have received confirmation to start my PhD on the 10th of January 2011
My girlfriend just ended her Year 2 on a high
Looking forward to this weekend in particular with the gf
My practice talk was good but I was very disappointed with my performance
SMR Cancer Conference last weekend was awesome in a couple of talks, food however was dreadful
Just finished planning everything....praying that all goes well hehe...

To My Dearest

2010-10-26T21:13:00.002+11:00

Dear Love,

Indeed it has been such an extraordinary six months together. Time really flies and I am definitely looking forward to more priceless moments spent with you. Every single day, my love towards you felt ever so strong and our bond getting ever tighter. The feelings I have for you haven't changed a bit since the first day I met you. I wanna thank you for all the joy and happiness you bring into my life. With that I am going to love you like no other. You mean a lot to me baby. I heart you very much...

Love
Your Huai Ren

A Little Update

2010-10-22T21:38:00.002+11:00

As promised, its time to update what's been going on since I had my talk last week. First of all, I would like to humbly say that my presentation was da bomb ya'll. Not that I wanted to boast but I felt I had put in enough time and effort to give a decent talk. My boss was impressed with what I have done so far and that's the most important. Over the past few weeks I have been more independent as both my colleagues and supervisor were away on holiday. That gave me the opportunity to show what sort of qualities I have. I am extremely happy as my boss recognizes that and gave me the assurance that he wanted me to stay on longer. A big boost is that they have accepted me as a future PhD candidate after my full time contract ends. Its only a matter of time when the University will offer me the offer letter. All is going according to plan. Experiments are turning up well too and it shouldn't take long when my next paper will be published. I can't wait for the upcoming one because I was the major contributor, almost 75% I reckon. I'm sure my hardwork pays off because it was accepted and reviewed by a very good publication, Clinical Cancer Research. Fingers crossed I will get them done before the Sydney Cancer Conference.

That being said, my personal life have been going great as well. I have a wonderful girlfriend who loves me as much as I love her. Our relationship is growing ever so strong and I am so excited to what is installed in future. She makes me happy and I just can't stop smiling everytime I think of her. She's actually the one thing that kept me going throughout the last couple of months. I am so in love right now and I will not let this slip out of my grasp. She is just too important in my life and I want to see her until the very end. The 'yongsuiness' in us just spice up the relationship in a whole different level. We clicked like bread and butter (obviously I'm the bread cos I'm fat hehe). I can just look her in the eyes all day long and tell her that I love her. It is sometimes hard when a couple is 3 hours apart but I felt that that is what make things exciting. The feeling of anticipation and looking forward to seeing her kept creeping up under my skin. Every weekend, you know that once you're done with work she's the first thing that come straight to your mind. In other words, she makes everything go smoothly. That's probably why she's the butter instead hehe.

So yeah, I know she's been studying really hard these weeks which means I'll have to prevent myself from going down to Sydney on weekends. Her finals are in two weeks and I wouldn't want to jeopardize her preparations. As for motivation, we'll be going away for a break straight after. I will always support you to the end love...

*Wo ai ni*

Tenth of the Tenth of the Tenth

2010-10-10T23:15:00.002+11:00

Apparently, there were more than a hundred couples getting married today according to the news. I am not too sure why but I guess 10-10-10 meant something har har. As for me, nothing much has come up apart from spending a couple of hours at my work place setting up some experiments. Yeah, I'm a nerd lol. Its been a tiring few days for me though. I have been trying to keep fit over the past week by playing badminton, jogging and also my favourite treadmill at the Uni's gym. My weight is going up at the moment but I kept telling myself it's muscles (perasan-ess). Indeed I do feel the firmness in those legs as I have done lots of sprints and accelerations. However, they do not go well with my flabby upper body. One reason is being lazy of course. I used to do sit-ups and push-ups almost every single day but I've slowed down ever since work took up most of my time. Anyhow, I will have a talk this coming Thursday so I guess I'll be pretty busy once again. Will update more when I'm done presenting. Stay tune :)

What is love?

2010-09-22T00:34:00.003+10:00

There are simply too many ways to describe love. Different people have their own designated perception of defining love. Some would say that love is a feeling of affection towards your partner whereas some would say just marry a 'rich' guy. I am one who does not have much experience in this field but one thing certain is that my feelings are genuine and real. Being a Roman Catholic, I guess I'm a more traditional, down to earth individual when it comes to this aspect. I let my heart speak instead of using some lame or catchy lines from the movies to impress a girl. I was born to have a very quiet and timid personality despite the massive body weight. With that at the back of my mind, my self-esteem wasn't the greatest. Love was far from my grasp even after high school. It was tough indeed but my focus on education and career development was significant enough to not worry about my love life.

As I age, it became more apparent that a partner in one's life is actually important. Having that one person to support you both mentally and spiritually does help you build a solid foundation of what character you are going to be in future. I personally describe love as a connection between two people who would do anything for each other. Say for example ,one would sacrifice a guys' night out just to be around to say hi when the female counterpart comes home. One would say I Love You while staring deeply into her eyes without blinking. A thought or image of your loved one appear when you just woke up from a night's sleep. Going to groceries or passing by certain restaurants and recalled your girlfriend's favourite food. Seeing her smile is a thousand time better than winning a lottery. Gazing upon her beauty and telling her that nobody is prettier. Holding her hands tightly and never let them slip.

We are only human. Everyone is flawed to a certain degree but that is what love amazes me. When you trully love someone, he or she comes to you as a perfect gift from God. Nothing else matters really. You'd somehow see pass any forms of flaw and only pay attention to the good details. You'd tend to remember the small minor bits and pieces as well. The little things that put a broad smile on your face. The short events you remembered that make you go haha in the middle of work. Even those quirky words used to describe certain objects or someone when no adjectives from the dictionary best represent.

Writing this entry makes me think, have I found the right one? Am I in love? Is she the one that I am willing to spend the rest of my life with? Answer is a definite yes. She fits every single description of the love of my life. I will hold onto it for as long as I can breathe or until my heart stops beating. She is my motivation. She is my guidance. She is my everything. I can confidently say now, "Baby, I am very much in love with you and I sincerely wish to grow old with you."

*Our love and happiness from Day one into Forever*

*I Love You Darling*

My First Publication

2010-09-08T19:08:00.002+10:00

After months of research and hardwork, I have published my first paper in Cell Death & Disease. This journal is actually the sister journal of Nature which is the mother of all scientific publications. I am so honoured to be a part of this wonderful research team and hopefully there will be more to come. This is the title of my work Apoptosis of human melanoma cells induced by inhibition of B-RAFV600E involves preferential splicing of bims.

*Am so so proud ^^*

30-08-2010

2010-08-30T19:26:00.002+10:00

Dear Mummy,

It's been exactly one year since you left us. We missed you so so much. I am sure you are having an awesome time up in heaven. How's the view by the way? Don't forget tomorrow's Malaysia's National Day so there will be heaps of firework display. It'd be nice if you could maybe drop by once in awhile to see your family. I know we can't see you physically but I sure felt you at times of needs. I want to thank you for sending us your blessings and taking care of us. Even when you are not around, we can still feel your love and care which keeps us safe. Mummy, you've also blessed me with a wonderful girlfriend and I wished that the two of you can bond together. I am sure you would love her. I know mummy's taste right? Anyway, things are looking really good in health, wealth, and future. The whole family would like to thank you for everything you had done. We were brought up by the best mummy in the world and we do cherish every single moment. I know you will be around us to guide and aid us in any way possible. Thank you Mummy. I personally think that I am a much better person today.

I Love You.

Your eldest son,
Fritz

The road so far...

2010-08-25T18:48:00.003+10:00

It's time for me to write something more significant rather than copying some interesting article from other websites or making a fool of yourself trying to sing Korean. Well sometimes you just can't help it but tell yourself, "Fritz! You too yong sui d!" Anyhow, it has been awhile since I last sat down here and put my thoughts into writing. So far, life's been treating me well but of course there are times when reality hits you at your weakest. For the past weeks, I have been busting my ass at my work place. End result: A paper got accepted for publication and another still pending. I must say that was an awesomefucking feeling. Downside was that my stress levels were at the brink. Even the doctor told me that my blood pressure was at the high end of being 'normal'. Anyhow, I believe its the results that count the most especially trying to make yourself recognizable to the world. I might be sticking one foot too far but that doesn't change the fact that my abstract got chosen for oral presentation in the next International Melanoma Conference in Sydney. Yes people, its INTERNATIONAL where I will have the chance to collaborate with famous researchers all over the world with titles such as Professors, Doctors, Associates, Laureates, etc. Guess what, I'm only a Mister and my family is surely proud of my achievements so far. The only catch is that my boss decided to let my more experienced colleague do the talk instead of me. It was such a shame because I know I can put on a good show but the two of us handled most of the project anyway. So it was fair enough for her to take the step up whereas I'll just learn and take in as much as possible.

I love learning new things. I am a hardworking individual who pushes himself really hard everytime a task has been given. I always give my all when it comes to work and hates disappointing anyone including myself. I see things very positively and this motivates me to do things even better. Sometimes I just don't know if I possess any limitations to my capabilities. I guess I've got this mindset since young where you keep building up confidence along the way until you reach your goal. It was hard indeed especially at that age, you tell yourself that career comes first. You tend to keep everything to yourself and not share with others. You became sort of anti-social, quiet, in the shadows, but at the same time obedient, meet your parents and teachers' expectations, and everyone surrounds you stay happy. With such thinking, came responsibilities. I as the eldest brother have got two younger naive siblings. While my parents were away on business for at least 3 weeks every month, I took charge. With grandma and an Indonesian maid, I had to be the father at home. I was only 7-9 years old and already huge responsibilities were on me to feed and nurture the young ones. I didn't think it was a burden because I thought it was the right thing to do.

I guess one led to another and this is what I have become today. I was brought up extremely well and I hope others see the same way. This is what I have learned so far in my life. I wish to be a better person with limited flaws so that I can show my genuine love to you. So in other words, I am just trying to dig out the best in me and exploit them to the world. I am always challenging myself for the good of everything.

KPOP

2010-08-21T19:52:00.004+10:00

Just in case you were wondering what song I was singing previously, here's the original version.

TaeYang is definitely my idol and inspiration now. Here's his latest single "I'll Be There". Don't think you'll see me try covering this song anytime soon LOL

=)

2010-08-21T02:00:00.001+10:00

So what do you think of my cover version of Wedding Dress by TaeYang? hehehe... <3

Beginning of the End

2010-08-17T18:04:00.002+10:00

In the next 2 weeks, I am going to abuse myself with lots of working out and exercise. Make no mistake, I have been struggling for fitness lately due to the lack of physical activity. Body doesn't seem to wanna move, tiredness in the mind, the urge of sleeping all the time and of course deteriorating health. I have come up with a plan which I hope will bring me back up to shape but I do know the risks involved. All I need is lots of motivation and patience. Fritz's training begins in 5 minutes....

Beauty Benefits of Sex

2010-08-11T11:55:00.002+10:00

I just came across this short interesting article on MSN and thought that everyone should know, don't judge me LOL

We know that sex makes us feel good and that there are a lot of health benefits associated with having sex, but did you know that it can also make your more beautiful? Not only does it give you a spring in your step and healthy glow, but there are other beauty benefits as well. Even Cameron Diaz claims that “lots of sex” is her beauty secret so we take a look at the effects that sex has on your appearance.

Glossy hair

The bedroom exercises that you do can actually make you hair glossy. The hormones that we produce, during and after, contain high levels of oestrogen, which does wonders for our hair by making it shinier.

It clears the skin

Throw away your complexion creams and pimple treatments because sex can help rid your skin of blemishes. Admittedly it won’t happen overnight, but progesterone, which is a hormonal product of sex, is produced while you are getting busy, and helps to fight pimples, spots and acne. Gentle, relaxed lovemaking reduces your chances of suffering dermatitis, skin rashes and blemishes.

It makes you glow

When you get busy under the sheets, it improves your blood circulation. This, in turn, helps to pump oxygen to the skin which will make it look brighter and give you a natural glow. It also helps to prevent dry skin as having sex hydrates it and the sweat produced cleanses the pores.

It keeps nails strong

If you suffer from brittle and dry nails that are prone to breaking, then fret no more. The same hormones that are produced to make you face glow, will also make your nails stronger.

It helps you sleep

We all know that sleep is essential when it comes to beauty and it goes without saying that an act of love ends with the ultimate relaxation and sleep, especially if it occurs after a hard day at work. The raising level of oxytocin produces a strong tranquillizing effect. Sex can therefore be considered as a perfect natural sleep-inducing medication.

It keeps you young

So the answer to getting rid of wrinkles isn’t just in a very expensive tub of cream. Having sex can also take a few years off your face. A study found that getting busy in the bedroom three times a week can make you look younger. Not only that, but we also produce collagen when we have sex which is great at keeping up wrinkle free.

The look of love

A person who is in love gives off a very different aura to others and are said to have a ‘gleam in their eye’ and a happy disposition, improving a person’s appearance. Their eyes will sparkle, their smiles brighter. It is often referred to as an inner beauty that is reflected in one’s appearance.

PS: These were copyright from the article itself. I did not write nor edit a single word :)

Good News

2010-07-28T23:54:00.001+10:00

Journal got accepted for publishing YAY!!!

Baby, this is for you :)

2010-07-11T20:47:00.004+10:00

I know its not as good as the original but I decided to post them anyway. This is me performing "I wanna grow old with you" and "I'm Yours". "Your Call" is actually a karaoke version hehe.. Oh yeah, its better with earphones cos the recordings are actually quite soft. Enjoy :)

< 3

2010-07-06T20:38:00.004+10:00

First of all, I would like to thank my dearest gf for yet another wonderful weekend. You make us whole as a couple and I know our relationship will continue to grow. I trully feel your love towards me and I hope I did return the favour. You had given me your all and I believe you are the right one for me. I wish to take care of you, to love you with all my heart and also to see u by my side until the end. I wanna grow old with you and share every priceless moment with you. Baby, I love you very much...

*Love the couple shoes*

*Love the couple portrait*

*Love the girlfriend very much :)*

Yet another Weekend with the GF

2010-06-28T22:32:00.005+10:00

That weekend spell a whole new chapter with high tolerance against alcohol laziness hehe. Even till today, I still can't believe that we actually finished the whole bottle of Absinthe! How can it be humanely possible??? I guess alcohol is just that difficult for our system to absorb. Oh well, we can always rely on cheap vodka next time hoh teehee ^^
Anyway, we went for a fine dining experience last Saturday night. The food was really good but ambiance was somewhat noisy for our liking. Don't worry baby, I'll take you to somewhere nicer next time k... It was still early which was how I predicted so that we could actually meet up with the gang at Darling Harbour. The girlfriend was actually in for a surprise. All of our close friends were at Critinni's having dinner and we requested a birthday song and dessert for the birthday girl. There were even hunky Italian guys singing in their Italianos. Boy, was she ever so happy =) After that we chilled at a nearby lounge for a bit before all of us went our separate ways.
The next morning we were up early as the girlfriend has got work. We went for a big brekkie and it was orgazmikally satisfying! Of course you needed a great breakfast to kickstart work on a Sunday morning. While she was working, I went to church and also Prize Paradise where I fished out a bear couple in a wedding dress from that claw machine. I hope she likes it =) The girlfriend got off work at around 4 and we went shopping. Footwear this time. We got Converse couple shoes! I can't wait to see us wearing them together, everyone's going to be so jealous of this Hot Couple =P

*Hey Beautiful winks*

*Thankiu Baby, I love you*

Weekend Surprise

2010-06-21T21:08:00.004+10:00

Last weekend spell a very special weekend I would say as it was my first time to Sydney in 3 weeks to see my lovely girlfriend. She has just completed 3 finals paper in 3 days straight. Knowing her exam schedule, I had come up with a plan to shower her with all the love she can get. I wanted to make it different, something special and meaningful where one could cherish every single moment. It took me weeks to get everything sorted out and even both train and bus delay weren't able to foil my master plan. I'll be very thorough from here onwards compiled with every minute detail possible. It all started with getting to know her birth date which was the 15th of June. That being said it was also the eve of her exam massacre and I knew I had to do something the following weekend to take that edge off. I drafted a small plot in my head of how I wanted the real thing to be.
First was venue. This was definitely the most difficult as the environment played a major factor on how she would react. I scanned heaps of places in the city but finally chose a 4 star JW Marriott. I was lucky enough to get a good deal as well so I am really glad that that was settled early. Next up, was the ideal gift for the loved one. I believe I am one who expresses his feelings tremendously and emotionally and decided to put them into words. What a better way to show your love for the girl of his dreams after she turns 20. That being said, I went on to handwrite the most tidy and neat letter on her birthday card. Once I had completed the card, I set it aside before enveloping it with precision. I tried to make it even more romantic by playing her a song entitled "Grow old with you". I have never played a guitar in front of anybody before, and miss JiYan Lum I am proud to say that you are the first to hear the full song although I stuffed up some lyrics at the end =P
Anyhow, I tried to keep it simple with some takeaway dinner and a bourbon whiskey, Wild Turkey. I was extremely happy to see her all jolly with that big big smile of hers when I presented that night. That tears of joy of hers really meant everything to me. I could see the sincerity in her eyes and great happiness at that moment. Forgetting the past, living in that very second where time seem to move ever slowly you wish it could just stop for you to enjoy every bit. I just wanna see that very beautiful smile on her face where I can keep in the back of my mind. That image for me was indeed priceless and I wanted to cherish all the time spent together. I love you very much sweetheart...
The following day, I pampered with the one thing where girls can't live without and that is getting a facial done. I had booked a week earlier for two at The Renaissance in the city for a 60minute hydrating facial. She has been wanting that for a very long time so I thought I might spoil her that weekend in granting her wish. I hope you like it baby. Other than that, we went to watch A-Team as well as Prince of Persia which was freaking awesome. We had orgazmik food lunch and dinner and alcohol at night.
Baby, I can't live without you and I wish to grow old with you.... I love you Darling....

Dearest

2010-06-15T17:12:00.000+10:00

Happy Birthday Baby...

Love you =)

World Cup Fever

2010-06-13T03:08:00.003+10:00

Indeed it is the World Cup Fever right now. Millions and millions of fans around the world are tuning in to watch the greatest sport on TV. A tournament held every four years has been more of a ritual rather than recreation is said to be the number one sport in the world. I personally think that this statement is genuine and real. I am a big soccer fan and will be rooting for England to win it. I hope that they'd do well. I am a true Chelsea fan and will be looking for Mr. Frank Lampard to perform at the highest level. After a disappointing World Cup 2006, I am looking forward to his playmaking ability after shining for his club all season. This is one player I admire the most and he has been my idol since I started watching football. You may say that I have a crush for this bloke but I don't give a shit of what you think! I look up to him and tried following his footsteps after making me fall in love with the sport during high school. I remembered learning those trickeries, the way he kicks the ball, and style of playing. This might be a little lame but I always tell friends that we have the same initials FL. Anyway, there is no denial that I'm not as good as him but I believe with training and match experience, I could be one of the promising players in the game. I scored some marvelous goals in the past but not really competitively. I wish I could be a famous celebrity or maybe a sports superstar but one can only dream. In reality, I'm just a boring scientist working extremely hard to earn a living for his future career. I am not famous but I do pray that one day I'd be recognise amongst my peers. I don't have much to offer except that I am a very caring and loving person who would lend a helping hand in anyway possible. That being said, I have met someone very dear to me and I wish to spend the rest of my life with her. It's been difficult over the past year or so and I hope to end that streak. With lots of new and unexplored ideas in mind, I plan to fully utilize my time and effort in making this fantasy work. I love her very much and hope that this is the start of our lives into forever.

I'd end this post with a couple of photos of my idol to give you a glimpse of what he could offer in the World Cup. One very obvious resemblance between him and me is that we are definitely a Mummy's boy. His goal celebrations of pointing up to the heavens indicate that every goal he scored was dedicated to his mom Pat after she passed away last year. I feel you mate =)

The non-Sydney Weekend

2010-06-05T19:23:00.003+10:00

So this is actually the first time this year that I am not traveling to Sydney for the weekends. As much as I would have loved to, Miss JiYan Lum is going to have her finals in less than two weeks. I didn't want to disturb or give her too much distractions as I am a pro in that lol. Anyway, I pray that you'll do well in your exams babe. I know you can do it. Love you very much baby XOxo =)

As for me there's not much things to do in Newcastle except taking photos of oneself a.k.a camwhoring. So to motivate you, let me show you some of my yongsuiness...

*The Act-Cool Look*

*The Dimple Look, pokes*

Bought a New Novel

2010-05-31T21:35:00.002+10:00

I just bought myself a novel as promised after completing PS I love you a couple of months ago. I am so excited and have already read 5 chapters. I've watched the movie already and thought that it was very beautiful. It is an international bestseller by Alice Sebold entitled The Lovely Bones. If you have not watched the movie yet, please do!

Happy Birthday Mummy

2010-05-27T22:06:00.004+10:00

Dearest Mummy,

I do hope you're having a blast celebrating your birthday in Heaven with all the angels and saints. Your family never forget this big day and Daddy actually called me up at work this morning for a small gathering in front of your tomb. I was on loudspeaker due to my absence physically but the whole gang was there to pay your respect. Cliff and his girlfriend even bought you flowers, and George got Baptized a few weeks ago, how cool was that! Although you couldn't be with us on your big day but I do feel your presence and blessings over us Lai Family. We really miss you a lot and Daddy said that we should practice this every 27th of May. I wanna thank you for taking care of us at all times. We were extremely lucky to have such a beautiful mother. This was indeed God's gift and we will cherish every moment of it.

Happy 54th Birthday Mummy.......

See, I even baked my lovely Brownies for you. Love you, miss you....

Summer Blockbuster Hunks

2010-05-20T21:54:00.005+10:00

Before you read this post, I would like to reiterate that I'm not GAY lol. I just love to admire guys who are good looking, down to earth, famous, great body, talented, humble etc etc. Kinda reminds me of me minus the looks, celebrity status, physique and talent. I would like to share with you some of the Hollywood hunks worth mentioning. In no particular order, I would shortlist 10 of my personal favourites and idols.

1. Robert Downey Jr.
How can one not love this hunk? Holmes or Stark, I'm sure the ladies have to agree with me 100% that he's one of the top. Just kill them with your English accent will ya?

2. Jake Gyllenhaal
The Prince of Persia will be premiering in a couple of weeks. A much more buff and beefy Jake is entering cinemas real soon. Make sure you girls catch him showing his testicular fortitude here rather than that Oscar winning performance alter ego 'Jack' from Brokeback Mountain.

3. Robert Pattinson
Ah yes, the twilight star who is currently very confused with girls right now. I'm not that into him but I thought I should list it here as he's the most talked celebrity in Hollywood. I guess girls nowadays just dig pale look, messy hair and one who sucks blood for a living.

4. Bradley Cooper
hmmm I only remembered Brad from 'The Hangover' which was comical. His upcoming film 'The A-Team' shows a very very different side altogether. A macho lieutenant leading out a team of experts at

5. Shia LaBeouf
Remember him from Even Stevens? Guess not, back then he was like an annoying 10 year old brat running around making trouble and giving headaches to his family. Now, he's acting alongside the very hot Megan Fox in Transformers. How lucky....

6. Johnny Depp
Mr. Jack Sparrow, how I adore you. I need not say much here......

7. Ashton Kutcher
He's definitely one of my personal favourites. We can say goodbye to that Gay-like Michael Kelso from That 70s Show and say Hello to Hunky Ash. Please Please, I urge you to watch Butterfly Effects and The Guardian. Go go go....

8. Chace Crawford
The Gossip Girl star made a name for himself when he was casted to play as Nate. His good looks and charm just made every teenage girl drop dead in an instant.

9. Ian Somerhalder
He was more known from his role as Boone in Lost. But now the 32 year old is starring in a new series called The Vampire Diaries. I mean come on, we can't just let that great abs go to waste without fully utilizing motion picture, can we?

10. Gerard Butler
This Irish bloke ballooned somewhat late in his acting career but age does not matter at all. The 300 and PS I love you star just gets it everytime. Hit him with any manuscript and he'll give you a great performance.

11. Hugh Jackman
He's from the land down under. Typical Outback Jack? Who's that? (being sarcastic)

12. Ryan Reynolds
Gosh I wish I have a body like that -____-'' Thanks Ryan......

He Returns

2010-05-10T23:32:00.003+10:00

After a good 2 month break from blogging, Fritz has decided to update a little. Lots have happened since; the good, the bad, the promise, the anticipation, the step in moving forward. Let me just start of with the worst, something that I am not proud of. Ever since the turn of the year, I picked up smoking. I didn't go a day without at least 5 cigarettes. Yes I was eating my lungs away. A lot of people asked me why. To make things easy, I responded with a two word answer, 'for fun'. I just didn't want to explain myself to every single person. But in truth, it does calm me down. My mind was pretty messy so I needed something to divert my attention. Unfortunately in this case, smoking comes into play. If smoking like a chimney everyday is bad enough, I even binge drink over the last couple of months. I was literally an alcoholic. I would head back home from work, pour myself a glass of ice and fill it up with whatever alcohol I have stocked up in my cabinet. I rely on these to get me through every single day. I work during the day and drink during the night. It was indeed a tough time for me and definitely not a memorable one.

That being said, Love is a powerful tool. It can change a person entirely or make you a better person. I have given up smoking 10 days ago. I have cut down on my drinks to a few social drinks here and there. I am proud to work with a big smile on my face. I am an easy person to interact with. I feel that I am willing to sacrifice my bad habits for love and happiness. I would like to thank you for bringing me back to Earth. I was once a careless child who lost his ways. Now, I am forever grateful that I have found someone like you. I will love you with all my heart and promise to be a caring and loving boyfriend to you.

Dear Love,

I cherish every single moment with you

I hope this is our start into Forever...

Turning 24

2010-03-04T22:56:00.002+11:00

After more than one month of absence, I am finally back to blogging. What a way to start off my come back with a big birthday wish to Mr. Fritz Lai. As of today, he is officially 2 years old according to the lunar calendar. Apparently, we celebrate the year of the tiger once every 12 years. So year 2010 has to be my year of domination. However, most believers said that celebrating the year of your Chinese Zodiac sign might be a year to watch out for disappointments, unlucky, failure etc. Good thing I'm not that superstitious and I am here to prove them wrong. It's only the start of March and things have been going extremely well. Full time job, all expense paid trip to Melbourne for a Cancer Conference, sufficient salary to support both my accomodation and entertainment every weekend, soon to publish a couple of papers etc. I guess I can officially state that the start of 2010 has been pretty awesome and I do wish there is more to come.

I would like to give a shoutout to all my mates who cared and remembered the date I was born. Thank you for all the sweet messages on Facebook, sms, and the phone calls. It really made my day especially working for 55hours in the last 4 days. I know indeed I'm a workaholic. I just love doing experiments rather than spending time sitting in front of my computer gazing at my desktop background until falling asleep.

So, what can I say. I guess I still have lots of years to come and am looking forward what this year has installed for me. Once again I wanna thank all my caring friends who have been there for me and wish everyone that they have a great time this year. For now, Fritz is signing off as a 24 year old.

Love XOXO

No longer Virgin

2010-01-24T23:42:00.001+11:00

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*My left ear lah....*

Malacca Part 2

2010-01-19T22:54:00.016+11:00

I know it's been a long time coming but I just couldn't find the time to compress photos and blog here. I was too occupied indulging myself with Malaysian food as well as Partying in Sydney. I'm going to be quick for now. Wait till I regain my blogging mojo before I go into details.

*Best Malacca Seafood*

*Best Mango Juice introduced by Akie :)*

*In the Eye of Malaysia with Leng luis*

*Cheesey & Tom Yam Steamboat for lunch*

*Sweet Indulgences for the sweet people*

*Posers are always Posers, especially the susu yap lol*

*OMG OMG! Satay Celup for dinner*

*Everyone acting cute*

*Gifts from Jonker Walk*

*Eh who's the Nerd LOL*

*Next pit stop, LUNCH!*

*Dinner in KL*

*yummmmm*

*Wouldn't have went down to Klang if I hadn't miss my flight lol*

*Group Photo in Jaya Jusco before I left Rachel in tears lol*

*End Product*

Now, West Malaysia trip is officially over. Next up, my 10 days trip back in Miri. Yet another huge post coming God knows when.... :)

Awesomeness

2009-12-22T22:10:00.010+11:00

I had the best time ever so far! It was filled with non-stop food search, travel, talking craps and laughter. I met 3 wonderful friends in KL who would sacrifice their precious time just to accompany during my stay there. I wanna thank you guys so much for making this trip such a memorable one. Rachel, Ken, Khien, you guys are the best! Great friends such as yourself are really hard to come by. I felt really really thankful meeting you guys. Miss you so much already.

Anyhow, I am going to try to make this post as short and simple as possible. Most of the photos are with Rachel anyway so here goes. I touched down in the country I call home late Thursday evening. Flight got delayed due to some technical difficulties but all's good. I met up with the gang in Mid Valley and head straight to Shabu Shabu, a Japanese Buffet restaurant in the city for Spider's surprise birthday celebration. That basically spell the start of our food hunting spree I should say.

Went for a Karaoke session at Times Square which lasted until 5am in the morning! The few of us then head to a nearby mamak stall for supper/breakfast where I had my first Roti Pisang in 2 years. We went back to Rachel's place and slept for like 3-4 hours before getting ready for our trip to Malacca. We woke up late as predicted and only started our journey in the afternoon. We had a massive lunch at a kopitiam restaurant. The Rachel, Ken and I consumed these:
We were so stuffed by then, our eyes were getting a little tired. But no, the show must go on. Khien decided to skip work and joined us late in the afternoon. We stopped by Old Town Coffee when entering Malacca. I had the best coffee in Malysia. Finally, a decent cup of coffee here! I had the hazelnut white coffee and was not disappointed at all.

And then it was dinner time...
No, we didn't eat raw seafood with things sticking out from their abdomen nor a car made out of colorful lights with a local driving it. Photos are mostly with Rachel hehe.. So next up was the EYE OF MALAYSIA woohooo!

*Khien was too busy so he didn't join us up there*

That was the our first stay in Malacca. I am going to postpone my post from here onwards as more photos are not available yet. No worries, I've got plenty of time now that I'm back in my hometown of MIRI. Honey I'm home........

Happy Birthday Dad

2009-12-14T20:52:00.002+11:00

Today I wish to give a big shoutout to my dad who by now should be flying half way across South East Asia to Macau. I hope you have an awesome 51st Birthday and may your first dollar spent in the casino hit the Jackpot. Enjoy the full one week with the kids in Hong Kong and Disneyland ya... I know George, Cliff and Micky will take very very good care of you.

Happy Birthday Daddy!

Love,
Your eldest son

Orientation

2009-12-09T21:13:00.002+11:00

I just came back from a 2 day orientation program organised by the hospital for new staff members. Basically, the talks were focussed mostly on work safety and handling of patients as well as hazardous materials. The orientation is mainly based on everyday duties of medical practioners and some non-clinical employess. So I am kinda sitting right in between these categories. However, due to the things that I'm working, I was considered clinical. Although I slept throughout most of the sessions, there were some interesting ones that opened my eyes. Yesterday, there was a demonstration on how to perform CPR during an emergency. I learned how to intubate and perform the quickest but effective CPR on that poor 'dummy'. Moments after that, something hit me. What would it be like to study medicine and become a doctor in a hospital dealing with uncorporative patients? I mean do I actually look like one who wears that white coat with a stethoscope hanging around my neck looking all superior as if the whole world would bow down for my services (no offense to soon to be doctors)? I just have a bad impression on those medical interns ever since that tragic experience. Anyhow, I believe I may excel in certain areas in this field but would probably not spend that amount of time studying. Moreover, I don't think I have the brain capacity to absorb that amount of knowledge. Indeed one can dream, can't they?

Today was pretty much the same but more lectures and less practicals. We started off by introducing each and every person present in the lecture theatre. It was my turn next so I said, "Good morning everyone! My name is Fritz and I am a hospital scientist under the Oncology & Immunology Unit." Everyone in the hall gave me a 2 second stare before moving onto the next person. I glance through most of their faces, some looked very impressed, some just remained speechless and some kinda 'checked' me out. I was trying to process what all these look mean. Given such a short amount of time, I had actually made a list in my head of what are the possible reasons.

The name Fritz doesn't actually come across an Asian dude
Do I look too old or too young to be a scientist?
The fact that I speak good English was a shock to most people
I do not have that 'science-related' look maybe?
or it's just probably a little weird to see someone in T-shirt and hot shorts working in the Oncology & Immunology Department.

Thus, bringing me to one conclusion. The world is defined by physcial looks. On a related note, it is very similar to the 'Girl in the Green Scarf' (Confessions of a Shopaholic). Reality check.

c'est ma faute

2009-12-08T23:16:00.002+11:00

Testing Testing

Now the Original Singer by Kyo:

This is what happens when you're home alone LOL

Straight Through My Heart

2009-12-06T17:57:00.008+11:00

The Backstreet Boys are back and better than ever with their latest single 'Straight Through My Heart'.

In the heart
Of the night
Where it's dark
In the lights
I heard the loudest noise
A gunshot on the floor
Ohhhh Ohhhhh

I looked down
And my shirts turning red
I'm spinning around
Felt her lips on my neck
And her voice in my ear
Like I missed you
Want you tonight

Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me
I can't stop the bleeding
Ohhhh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me
I just can't believe it
Ohhhh
No I can't resist
And I can't be hit
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
Soldier down(my heart)
Soldier down(my heart)

Thought I moved
More than on
Thought I could
Fool her charm
I really wanna go
But I can't leave her alone
Ohhhh ohhhh

Hear the sound
Of a love so loud
I just can't, I just can't
Ignore this feeling
Said she misses me
And she wants me
Wants me tonight

Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me
I can't stop the bleeding
Ohhhh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me
I just can't believe it
Ohhhh
No I can't resist
And I can't be hit
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
Soldier down(my heart)
Soldier down(my heart)

In the heart
Of the night
When it's dark
In the lights
I heard the loudest noise
A gunshot on the floor

Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me
I can't stop the bleeding
Ohhhh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me
I just can't believe it
Ohhhh
No I can't resist
And I can't be hit
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
Soldier down(my heart)
Soldier down(my heart)

*Bought the Deluxe version hehe*

Dearest Mummy

2009-11-30T01:17:00.012+11:00

I genuinely feel that this is the right time for me to write this. Well, today is actually Mom's third month anniversary of her passing. To some, it might be a surprise because she has been such a wonderful person to be with. She's always with that big smile of hers and can really talk a lot. And I mean REALLY talk a lot. I have learned so much from her and believe that I have matured into a much better person than before. When she was still around, she always tell me how proud she is of her eldest son. Having me beside her is one of the best feelings she had especially with her auntie auntie friends around. Mom has always been a strong person and I really appreciate everything she had done for me since the day I was born. She used to tell me that I was the most difficult to give birth as my head was really big. First child + big head = Go figure!

Anyway, everytime I come back home form overseas, we would go out just the two of us. We would go shopping, have lunches in the best cafes in Miri, even head down to the movies like most loving couples would. We would hold hands in the mall and everyone would stare at us. Good thing we look most alike amongst my brothers so strangers won't think otherwise. The best thing is that Miri is not a very big city as compared to KL, so we do bump into familiar faces quite often. Mom's auntie auntie friends would be like (in mandarin), "who's this handsome boy? your son ah???" She'd be, "yalor, my eldest son just came back from Aus..." You could just see the happiness and joy on her face especially when all the auntie auntie friends started praising her and I. Everytime that happens, I would find a shovel quickly and dig a hole on the spot to bury my big head (not literally but you get the picture). My shyness still haunts me untill today espcially when people starts complement my physical appearance LOL.

Yeah, I really do miss those moments. Mom would spread the good news about how successful her children are. There are some aunties who are really snobbish and arrogant who normally boast about their wealth and good life. Mom's nothing like that but she loves getting back at those kind of people. I would tag along as well because I just love to see the look on their faces when mom started boasting about the good things such as great loving husband, successful kids doing extremely well academically and in co-curricular activities, etc. I miss going shopping with her too. Her motto is, "buy anything with credit card, daddy will pay". I just love that... I am no big spender but when mom insist, you just can't say no haha.

That was the main reason why I had to rush back home in August. I received news from my cousin that mom's not doing too well. The cancer has spread from her breast to her lungs. Water was accumulating and had to be pumped out manually. I called dad straight away but didn't want me to worry as I was in my transition period from a student to the working world. Come on, that's not a good enough reason. I flew back the next day and managed to spend 4 days and 3 nights with mom by her bedside. Unfortunately, she fell into comatose before I arrived the hospital and couldn't really communicate. But I do know that she could hear me and sense my presence. She had two wishes before she lost all forms of communication. One was to see me and the other is for me to buy anything I want as a gift from her. I am so happy to fulfill both wishes and I know that she is looking over me as well as my family. I can sense her presence everywhere I go and that really helped me a lot. My family and I felt really blessed as everything is headed in the right direction. Dad is doing much better now that his boys are all mature enough to handle anything.

George is doing really well in his studies, Cliff is now a manager at a new Pub & Bistro, and I finally got a job in Aus. I know mom is with us every second of the way. She has raised three very strong boys all with their own unique personalities but similar in love and care. Mom always say that I am a good role model for the two young ones and I do hope I had lived up to her expectations. All of us have such a strong bond together as a family. We take things one step at a time and move on with our lives keeping our loved ones close to our heart. This is just a test to see if you are mature and strong enough to continue walking. She has raised us well and it is good to know that she is having the time of her life in Heaven without any sufferings. I always joked that she picked the best date to leave us. She left on the eve of our national day celebration so as not to miss the fireworks from up above. That always cracked dad up into laughters hehe.

Everyone is doing extremely well right now. It was difficult to let go at first but soon happiness would find its way to us. Dad's having a great time with business and holidays. George is living his life like any other 18 year old. Cliff has turned over a new leaf thanks to his girlfriend whereas I met someone very special back home. All of us are having the time of our lives and I wanna thank mom for her blessings. We love you and miss you so very much!

*The most beautiful mom in the world*

*Family*

*I miss teaching mom about computers*

*First cny at the new house. See how happy mom was!*

*Mom even made it to SYDNEY!*

*And my Graduation*

*Mom would definitely love this 5-star class hotel*

*The three big boys*

*Everyone smiles*

*Mummy, I Love You very very much*

I'm Going Home

2009-11-29T11:24:00.002+11:00

The moment I have been waiting for so so long. Initially, I was due back home by Chinese New Year 2010. However, I got news that it would be a very busy period for us working in the lab here. I had even bought a return ticket via Airasia last June and was really looking forward to spending some quality time with family back home. My supervisor then offered me an all expense-paid trip to Melbourne for 4 days to attend the Melbourne Lorne Cancer Conference 2010 from the 10th to 14th February. It is going to be a huge event domestically as famous researchers will be flying in, giving talks, presenting posters, etc. That gives me roughly 2 months to get my poster ready by then. Hopefully, that's enough time for me. That being said, I decided that I won't be able to head home during then. I had a good think if there were any other alternatives over the past week. Finally, I concluded that I will be going home at the end of the year. With public holidays closing in, that should be the best time for me to apply leave. Haven't actually told much of them yet because I thought of surprising them. I am really thankful for what has been going on so far. I officially sign a one year contract as a Hospital Scientist/Research Assistant and got my first paycheck last Tuesday. Earlier, I couldn't apply any paid leave due to my lack of accumulated annual leave. However, the head of my lab was really happy with my work so far and decided to keep me with pay over the holiday period. I was filled with joy knowing that I am able to enjoy my trip back home and still get paid for that. Now, I can use my hard-earned cash to buy whatever I want for whom I want. I have put a lot of thoughts in what I am getting but still could not spot the perfect item.

Anyway, family won't be around to welcome me home because they will be spending a week in Macau! Dad's birthday is also sandwich in between, so they are celebrating it in Hong Kong. So Jealous!!! Therefore, I will be spending 3 days in KL before heading back to Miri. By then, family would have returned from their amazing trip. Oh well, I hope I have fun as well back in KL as it's been a long time since I ventured arond the city. I miss the shopping life there. I miss the excellent food. I miss the serene and peaceful environment back home. I miss the loving people that surrounds me. I miss mom, dad, 2 bros, Grandma. I really miss her too.

A shoutout to them. Thank you for loving me. Stay strong always... I believe in fate

Hope & Faith

Always

2009-11-26T07:07:00.001+11:00

One of the rarest live, acoustic versions. Love it...

"Hallelujah"

2009-11-25T23:56:00.003+11:00

Now I've heard there was a secret chord
That David played, and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?
It goes like this
The fourth, the fifth
The minor fall, the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah

Your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you
To a kitchen chair
She broke your throne, and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Baby I have been here before
I know this room, I've walked this floor
I used to live alone before I knew you.
I've seen your flag on the marble arch
Love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

There was a time you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show it to me, do you?
And remember when I moved in you
The holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

You say I took the name in vain
I don't even know the name
But if I did, well really, what's it to you?
There's a blaze of light
In every word
It doesn't matter which you heard
The holy or the broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

I did my best, it wasn't much
I couldn't feel, so I tried to touch
I've told the truth, I didn't come to fool you
And even though
It all went wrong
I'll stand before the Lord of Song
With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Hallelujah

Something like this

2009-11-23T07:52:00.005+11:00

Leona Lewis - Run

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you, dear

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you, dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak, I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you, dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak, I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Photography

2009-11-22T19:35:00.005+11:00

As usual, I had my 5km run on a Sunday evening but this time I was smart enough to bring along my camera. The weather hit boiling point at around 42 degrees today. The air was filled with hot breeze as if you're in one of those fan oven. That however doesn't stop me from going out for a run. I head straight to the beach for a better view. I snapped a couple of pictures which I think is somewhat 'nice'. Please don't hesitate to critic or leave me any comments.

*I was running halfway until I met HoneyBee....*

They say Newcastle has one of the most beautiful beaches in NSW. What do you reckon?

Things that keep me sane most of the time

2009-11-22T11:57:00.003+11:00

My favourite snacks, CHOCOLATE!

*First time trying Kinder Surprise*

*Oh Look! What's This*

*For me????*

*Great! I've always wanted a miniature mirror on my belt buckle (sarcastic)*

Bon Jovi - Always

2009-11-22T02:28:00.001+11:00

This romeo is bleeding, but you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up
It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up

Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well,I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me

1-Yeah I, will love you, baby
Always and i'll be there
Forever and a day, always

2-I'll be there, till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
I know when i die you'll be on my mind
and I'll love you, always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh
Some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye

What I'd give to run my fingers thru your hair
Touch your lips, to hold you near,
When you say your prayers, try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words
You've been needing to hear, I'll wish I was him
'Cause these words are mine, to say to you
'Til the end of time (rpt 1)

If you told me to cry for you, I could
If you told me to die for you, I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price i won't pay
To say these words to you

Well, there ain't no luck in these loaded dice
But baby, if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams, and our old lives,
We'll find a place, where the sun still shines
(rpt 1,2

Dedicated for you and you only

Something New

2009-11-21T17:11:00.002+11:00

I was feeling a little adventurous so I tried something different for a change. It's a new diet plan that I have set up myself this week. Since I love bread so much, I'll call it My sandwich and salad Diet. Yup, nothing but bread, pastries and salad every meal. I restricted myself from taking any meat other than ham. This was what I did:

Monday
- Breakfast: Peanut Butter & Jam Sandwich
- Lunch: Latte and Ham & Cheese Croissant
- Dinner: Korean Noodle

Tuesday
- Breakfast: Peanut Butter & Jam Sandwich
- Lunch: Latte and Ham & Cheese Croissant
- Dinner: Peanut Butter & Jam Sandwich

Wednesday
- Breakfast: Peanut Butter & Jam Sandwich
- Lunch: Pear
- Dinner: Lettuce, Tomato, Pear with Balsamic Dressing

Thursday
- Breakfast: Peanut Butter & Jam Sandwich
- Lunch: Pear
- Dinner: Korean Noodle

Friday
- Breakfast: Peanut Butter & Jam Sandwich
- Lunch: Pear
- Dinner: Macaronni and Cheese

So what was my verdict after this week?
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...
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.....
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HORRIBLE TERRIBLE VEGETABLE!

How can one possible survive without any meat whatsoever? Moreover, I had a couple of Diarrhoea episodes in between. Good thing it wasn't serious but I guess that was just a cleansing period after polluting my own system over these years. Surprisingly, I was feeling very fit. The sandwiches must have contain enough carbs for me to last the whole day. Fruits and Vegetables do provide me with sufficient vitamins and minerals. Finally, proteins from ham which brings us to the last main food group. Where did I consume the fats and oil then? Cheese maybe? Whatever. My point is that I managed to respect every nutritional values in my book. I guess that's one advantage of having a nutrition & dietetics background.

All in all, it was an okay experience. It wasn't great, but passable. Not sure about weight loss but I might actually consider trying something similar one day. I am not sure what's the main objective here but it does give me a sense of what it feels like to be a vegetarian (although ham is not actually considered).

Yummmmm

2009-11-16T18:14:00.001+11:00

*Latte + Ham & Cheese Croissant Toasted*

Dreams

2009-11-16T08:05:00.003+11:00

What are dreams made of? They say it is just the sub-conscious mind having some random fun while we are asleep. There is no control of what sort of scenario we are put into but a person's personality or emotional state at that moment does play a factor. I woke up this morning with mixed feelings. I tried to remember what I dreamt the night before but could only picture various scenes that don't really make any sense. One thing for sure, I was indeed in character. It felt real and the whole dream was vividly clear. Details, sound, colour, lots of running and even Jared Leto from 30 seconds to Mars was there to show me a magic trick. I know, very very weird. When I opened my eyes, I was drenched in sweat. I didn't know that running in your dream can actually burn that unwanted calories. Awesome! But I wasn't entirely sure if I was in the real world or still dreaming. I shut my eyes and began wondering. Alarm hasn't rang yet, sky was getting brighter, the heat was still scorching. I finally realised that I had just woken up from a dream. I won't say that it's a nightmare but it was certainly weird enough for me to start writing a blog post before work. cheers

so happy

2009-11-15T01:09:00.001+11:00

Ran 5km just now, had some drinks at a nearby pub, spoke to dad, listen to her voice. It's all worth the wait...

7 days a week

2009-11-14T11:05:00.003+11:00

This week has been indeed the most tiring I had ever faced. Considering I missed a couple of days due to my horror gastro bug last week, I thought of making up the hours. However, it's been worthwhile. I am finally getting paid for a full time job in doing what I do best as a Hospital Scientist. Can't wait for my first paycheck. I already knew in the back of my mind how to put that money into good use. Other than that, I'll need to continue my daily routine at the lab. My supervisor is quite happy with my progress so far. We had a short talk yesterday and we are quite confident that we can publish a relatively good paper. Pray pray I get to publish it soon. I just need great results to go with. For all this sake, I really need a drink tonight. I got to relax my mind especially under these stressful situation.

Message for her

2009-11-13T07:55:00.001+11:00

Darling, All the best in your exams ya! I know you'll do well... Will be thinking of you too :p

weird

2009-11-11T08:28:00.001+11:00

hmmm something doesn't feel right....

Vaccines

2009-11-10T23:18:00.002+11:00

Three injections and a sprain foot later, I was left sore in both my arms limping my way home. It took me the whole afternoon to get everything done. At least I know now that I am immune to most of the common diseases. I am getting extremely excited right now as I am getting paid as a full time employee real soon. I just can't wait for my first paycheck doing what I love to make the world a better place. This week has been going really well in fact. Physically, I'm better than ever. Muscle aches are just least of my worries. I have been getting great feedback from my supervisor who just returned from a business trip in China. He said, 'Fritz you are so hardworking'. That's good to know. Mom would be very very proud. I've got so much support from family and friends around me. I wanna thank all of you that had stood beside me especially my darling. Without you, I wouldn't have the strength and courage to continue what I do best. Now I am able to exploit my capabilities in the research industry and hopefully this is just the start of more good things to come.

Poofed

2009-11-08T23:21:00.002+11:00

Just did a 5km run late this evening. It was awesome, but not so good on those dormant legs. Hopefully, it spells a great week ahead of me :p

Enlightened

2009-11-08T13:58:00.002+11:00

Woke up as if it's a Monday morning. Feeling much better now thanks to motivation and lots of love. Although it was a dark, gloomy day, I managed to pull myself up from bed as early as 7.30 and got dressed for church. Yes, I finally attended my first mass in Newcastle. Good thing I found a Catholic Church here within walking distance. Ironically, it is named St. Joseph's which is similar to the one I normally go back home. It is much more of a relief attending this morning's service after what I had been through the last couple of weeks. I pray for family and friends, health, job security, knowledge and also a plane ticket to fly home (I wish). Of course, I do pray for my sweet honey bee as her finals are coming up real soon. May I pray that she is well equipped with lots of knowledge and lots of brain juice prior to her exams this coming Friday and the following Tuesday. If possible, I would give her some of mine to boost extra memory capacity. May she stay healthy as well throughout her revision and exam period. There is nothing that can affect darling ya, lots of love : ) Okay, I also send my prayers to all who are going to have their finals soon. I wish everyone the best of luck...

Headache Headache

2009-11-07T14:22:00.000+11:00

Plz plz go away...

One more...

2009-11-06T14:28:00.003+11:00

Say (All I Need)(One Republic Acoustic Cover) - Slide

Sick

2009-11-05T15:16:00.002+11:00

It wasn't a good feeling indeed after falling sick for the very first time in more than a year. I guess my stomach wasn't appreciating what it was being fed with. It decided to show what it is made of and blew everything out from wherever holes possible. I started getting a massive diarrhea late evening yesterday during work. There was a time where I had to rush to the toilet 3 times in just under an hour. I was so exhausted then but it does not end there. The diarrhea episodes continued when I reached home. There, my stomach upped a notch by making me throw up. I had lost all my sense of smell and taste. Everytime I tried sipping a glass of water, I felt like puking. It was so painful. The gastric juice, bile, pieces of chilli from the night before... All of which gave me a good kick until I had to go to the hospital. Unfortunately, the doctors were 'too busy' to entertain me even after waiting patiently for four hours. I decided to call it a night as it was already 3am. I went back home and told myself to be strong. I guess self-healing is a good medicine when all has failed. Throughout the whole night, I was accompanied by my darling. That helped me stand tall although I was spending most of my time sitting on the toilet seat. Her tender love and care really gave me the motivation to fight against the virus in me. I am feeling much better now. Though very very dehydrated, I started to consume something orally although I was very tempted by her delicious laksa back home. I guess it's just plain porridge for now and lots and lots of water. Darling, don't know what would I do without you...

Halloween

2009-10-31T16:56:00.002+11:00

Good day everyone...It's the last day of October which spells Halloween celebration in the city. Unfortunately, I can't expect much from a small town like Newcastle to hold such a festive occassion. I hope I'm wrong but to be honest, I'm not actually looking forward to it. I just got back from a 2 days trip in Sydney to clear my head up. It's been a hectic week and I just need to getaway from Newcastle for the weekend. I met up some friends last night and had a couple of drinks. My alcohol tolerance is building up quite dramatically. I didn't feel any effects probably due to lots of things on my mind. Just imagine working 9am till 8pm without seeing or feeling the sunshine. Although enclosed in an environment I am comfortable with, at the end of the day there are always tension in between. I was really focussed and was in a world of my own but I do get the job done in the end. I take this as a positive view in learning and perfecting my aseptic techniques when dealing with my experiments. I am indeed satisfied with my progress so far. All I need is some motivation from that special someone. I know with her tender love and care, I am able to succeed. I just wish I can wrap my arms around her right now and give her all the love she deserves. I love her very very much...

Puasa

2009-10-28T20:51:00.002+11:00

It's been such a tiring day today. I had to catch the earlier bus than usual to get my experiments going so as not to go home late. Boy, was I wrong... I skipped breakfast thinking that I would have something big at lunchtime. Unfortunately, my supervisor didn't show up today due to family issues. I ended multitasking throughout the whole day. My initial plan was to head down to the University to learn some new machine but I couldn't find the time. I had to miss lunch as well to finish up one task after another. I was in the mood up until 6pm. My mind started wandering and my eyes became quite fuzzy. I tried walking around but I could just feel the floating sensation of being in a 'sampan' peddling back to Malaysia. I was literally walking in circles and eventually fell asleep on my lab bench. I woke up with a sudden realization that my incubation period for a couple of samples is up. Threw them into the fridge and went home. I was left for dead but thankfully, I've got my darling close to me. Her messages guided me home safely hence, I am sane enough to write up this post. Of course, I had my breakfast + lunch + dinner just now after my housemate made fried rice. I also drank a cup of milo with extra sugar to boost my brain cells. Now, I am back to normal reminding myself not to do this again ever.

One of my Favourites

2009-10-25T16:32:00.003+11:00

This may surprise you but I am actually a fan of Lady Gaga. I have been searching for cover version on Youtube and I thought this is pretty good.

Slide - Paparazzi (cover)

Lab on a Saturday

2009-10-24T16:34:00.003+11:00

It has been a real intense week for me but it didn't just end there. I had to attend a lab session on a Saturday to complete what I started early this week. I spent another 3 hours today and had a great time. I had the whole lab to myself and was singing along with the radio. I was doing lots of random things today because Saturday is not actually working day in my book. I even had a gift from my lab manager, my own personal pipettes.

*Let me introduce you to my little friends*

Did some viral work and then I'm back home to see her.

Miss her so so much today...
Darling, be strong ya. I'm always there for you.... :p

A minute break!

2009-10-22T20:48:00.003+11:00

Work has been really enjoyable. It's been about 6 weeks since I first started as a freshman. Now, I see myself as a more independent lad and am able to handle critics as well as problem based learning situations. I am really thankful to have such friends who are not afraid to share their wisdom and willing to aid me in any other way. I too played my part by doing more research instead of fooling around like back in school so as not to let any of them down. My supervisor is currently away for 3 weeks and I hope by the time he comes back, I am able to show him what I am capable of. Even right now, I am way ahead of myself. I just had a massive presentation this morning giving a review about the background of my topic and also some results from my experiments. I got some good critic from the head supervisor so I was quite pleased with my progress. I am hoping to impress everyone even more come my next talk. That being said, I do owe much of the credit to that someone special of mine. Without her, I don't think I have the motivation to carry on. She has been my backbone throughout my preparation before today. When I was designing my slides, she was there. When I was writing up speech, she was there. When I was down, she was there to pick me up. Her smile always bring joy to my face and I am so blessed to have someone like her in my life. I love her very very much...

Dedication to her

2009-10-21T00:45:00.001+11:00

~I Love You~

Love is in the air

2009-10-19T00:54:00.000+11:00

Bittersweet

2009-10-13T18:01:00.002+11:00

It's exactly one month since I left home. There were lots of mixed feelings involved but I will cherish every single second of it. Going back 5 years from today, I was just out of high school and about to start my foundation. Things were stable but the presence of time changed everything. Family, friends, the surroundings became a whole new challenge. I had to do something to cope with the unnecessary pressure building slowly. Hence, a dramatic weight loss, the sudden burst of socializing, maturity and of course independent. I was away from my comfort zone but I guess it did me more good than bad. Mom was very proud and that matters to me the most. Whenever her eldest son return, you could just see the joy in her eyes. We would spend most of our time together especially going shopping. I ought to say that shopping with her is really priceless. I learned so many tricks and traits about everything. Mom would hold my hand as if we were out on a date and best thing was that I don't mind at all. So fast forward to today, I sat in front of my computer reliving all the wonderful memories back home. I am sure Mom knew that she had raised a great son. I am coping quite well with what I am born to do.

That being said, there is no way an individual could handle any sadness or heartache by oneself. It was bittersweet really when someone close to you decided to take an early vacation. It only made me stronger and more mature in handling these circumstances. The pain used to be unbearable but we take it really positive. I learned to see the good in life and what God has planned for me. On the very last day of my stay, God introduced me to a friend. She is the most beautiful person I know. Caring, kind, understanding, funny, talkative, etc. For a couple of minutes, I had to pause and digest the feeling of what was running through my veins. It was love. I decided that that is the person I want to spend my life with. I am a person who doesn't fall in love easily but I have faith that one day the girl of my dreams would come to me. I believe Fate brought us together and I will love and cherish every moment with her. I pray everyday that we will live and grow old together till death do us part like the marriage vow. I will honour that promise and love her with every bit of my heart.

I Love You

Love is it the air

2009-10-10T12:25:00.002+11:00

I am so in love. I still can't put into words the feeling I am going through right now. They say relationship is a very fragile and delicate commitment to make. But when you have actually met that someone, you would do anything and everything to make ends meet. When the big day comes, you'll know what to do. There will always be something in your gut which pushed you to act immediately. After all, basic instincts are very reliable. That's what I've learned so far. Just go with the flow and let nature take its course. At the end of the day, that one true love will appear at your door step. Love her to bits...

I honestly love you

2009-10-05T17:44:00.000+11:00

Maybe I hang around here
A little more than I should
We both know I got somewhere else to go
But I got something to tell you
That I never thought I would
But I believe you really ought to know

I love you
I honestly love you

You don't have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
This is pure and simple
And you should realize
That it's coming from my heart and not my head

I love you
I honestly love you

I'm not trying to make you feel uncomfortable
I'm not trying to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesn't come along everyday
And you shouldn't blow the chance
When you've got the chance to say

I love you
I honestly love you

If we both were born
In anoother place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours
And here I am with mine
So I guess we'll just be leaving it at this

I love you
I honestly love you
I honestly love you

Mooncake Festival 2009

2009-10-04T17:23:00.008+11:00

A Chinese festival was celebrated every first Saturday in October. It is known as the Mooncake festival where us Chinese gather around a campfire performing a so called ritual of worshiping the full moon, NOT! I am not entirely sure the legend behind mooncakes but I do love eating them. I am mainly there for the wide varieties of food from different folks. Last night we head up to one of the on-campus accomodation for a pot luck. It was quite nice as everyone contributed a helping hand. At the end of the night, we even had lanterns to brighten up the dark shadow hovering above us with no sight of the moon. The clouds were cloating up really quickly forming drizzles of rain which kinda spoil the whole night. But I opt to stay in to watch I-Robot with a couple of friends. I was a little bored until I got a call from home. Spoke to her for a full half hour which brought me down to Earth once again. I love having conversation with her and it would not stop there. We continued into the early hours. With daylight saving put into play, I hit the sack at around 7am. Only after hearing those magical words, I was able to sleep soundly with my smile fading into the night. I was feeling so much love that night and I do hope she feels the same as well. That being said, I will sum up this post with pictures from last night.

*Puff Pastries*

*Dinner time*

*Mooncakes!*

*Lanterns!*

*Taking a break*

*Pool Time*

*Full Moon*

I miss her so so so much.........

The road so far

2009-10-02T23:18:00.004+10:00

Has it been two weeks already? Gosh, time sure flies when you are actually working and looking forward to come home every single day because you know there will be someone waiting. The feeling of loving someone and being loved cannot be explained in simple words. It can only be shown through one person's heart. The image of her has stuck in my mind ever since I left for Australia. As days go by, my feelings towards her grew ever so strong. I miss her each day without fail. I just can't wait to see her again. I will wait for her patiently and promise to give her all the love she deserves. Only time will tell....

Miss you

2009-10-01T23:43:00.001+10:00

Miss you Miss you Miss you Miss you

What am I feeling right now?

2009-09-28T23:44:00.001+10:00

smashing weekend

2009-09-27T16:54:00.003+10:00

My first week back in Newcastle went by in a quickie. So is my weekend but it was such a productive one. Midweek spell one of the worst weather we had ever experience. A sudden sand storm struck Newcastle and we were left breathing dust the whole day. Good thing our jobs kept us indoor pretty much until the sky began to clear up. It was just a one day extravaganza where every single person in NSW was talking about it. Cargo ships were left stranded at ship docks, construction workers had the day off due to poor visibility, cars were all covered in dust making car wash establishments the happiest people for only a day.
Last night was also a farewell night with my work mates at UTS. We had a couple of hard drinks and everyone was so high. But it was good fun. We brought drinks to their apartment and got somewhat wasted, head to a nearby club and party all night long. I struggled to get up this morning as well. The slight hangover almost knocked me out but I managed to pull myself up for her. I was so disappointed when my phone ran out of battery but I managed to complete my main objective in Sydney. I met up with her best friend to send some love back home. So I hope she likes it. Anyway, it was the Malaysian Fest today and boy was it disappointing. The occassion was saved by the Mamak stall but at least it gave us a good sense of being back in Malaysia. There were so many Malaysians, performances and random photo shots. Food was quite bad but the point was to have everybody gather as one. I thought we did achieve that so it's actually a win win situation.
Ah yes, the worse char kuey tiaw I've ever eaten lol

hmm

2009-09-24T18:38:00.001+10:00

Fritz is missing her so so much

GoodBye Sydney

2009-09-21T19:52:00.004+10:00

It's back to the old Joint from where I graduated last year. But instead of furthering my studies, I've landed a job offer. A one year contract which allows me to gain some work experience related to my studies. So apart from driving all the way to from Sydney alone, I did have a great time packing and meeting up friends. It was really hard leaving Sydney at first but priorities are always straight.
I just started my first day at work and boy was it interesting. I had a tour around the lab and had to sign my John Hancock on some documents. Everyone was really nice but I'm sure I have more to learn. I can't wait to get everything settled down as soon as possible. Next on my to-do list is to find an accommodation rather than parasiting my good friends over in Newcastle. Only time will tell when I finally get the contract all sorted out and receive my first ever pay as a full time employee. Other than that, love and life has been kind to me over the past week. It was bittersweet back in Malaysia but I came back to Australia a brand new man. Now, a much better person than before. I can see myself a more mature individual. I have a clearer picture ahead of me and also a larger goal in life. A new target, a new environment, a new challenge where life has install. I have never been happier. I owe all these to one person and one person only. She's everything to me.

Cut it short

2009-09-18T17:48:00.002+10:00

Jetlagged - 26hours
Lunch - UNSW
Dinner - City
Lunch - Awesome pizza courtesy of Concourse Cafe UTS
Snacks - Beer at the Loft thanks to my boss
Dinner - soon, in an hour time

Night to Remember

2009-09-15T05:48:00.006+10:00

Crocodile Farm Outing

2009-09-14T17:30:00.008+10:00

Instead of attending the morning mass at a nearby cathedral, we decided to spend our Sunday at a farm some 25km from the city. Crocodile Farm to be exact. The weather was pleasantly hot, although not too pleasant for the sensitive skin. Good thing we haven't got any skin issues so back to the topic. Entrance was somewhat expensive and my intuition began to doubt our visit. We were first entertained with some croc feed. Being that close to the crocs actually gave me quite a scare. They sounded really aggressive when we started walking over them. That wooden construct of a bridge over these reptiles didn't look too stable but I live to write this post another day.

*Yummy*

When feeding time was over, we strolled around the park. There was a man with some friends; a baby croc, snake and a bear. I took out my camera and was lightning quick snapping those photos. The bear bear was really cute.

*See what I mean, just look at its sitting posture*

*Cold and slimy*

*Cute Porcupine*

*This particular Monkey pulled my pants. Hate Monkeys!*

*Breeding Ground*

*Really?*

*I can see the Ding Dong*

*Bear doing the splits*

*First the most dangerous bird, now the croc hunter*

*End of our road*

*The animals love us*

I'll sign this post of with a photo of our dinner last night. It was entirely made up of local take-aways. Please stare at the picture for more than 3 seconds and let your pituitary gland fill your mouth with saliva.

Karaoke night

2009-09-13T16:10:00.010+10:00

There is no way I am going to stay home on a wonderful Saturday Night. This time, a visit to a newly renovated KTV lounge for a karaoke session with some friends. We had a quick dinner and then head straight to the joint. I was really amazed how nice the room was. We were greeted with neon lights all over where we sat our Asses on the virgin sofa. Everything was perfect just the way it is. We were served beers the whole night. We don't even need to pour them out as there is a waiter who actually does that every now and then. Song choices varied as well. There was a good mixture between Chinese and English songs. Moreover, most of them are actually quite recent, for the Chinese ones I mean.
Once again we had a slow start into the night and as usual we were all shy to show off our magnificent voices. After a good ice breaking session, we were more comfortable amongst each other. Alcohol began to set in and each one of us unleashed our inner beast against songs sang by the Backstreet Boys, Boyzone, Westlife, etc.

*Even Wei Sian and his gf joined us for a bit*

When the English session ended and the Chinese one started, I just enjoyed watching music videos such as this:
So it's like a win-win situation. Beer was still flowing which makes everything even more worthwhile. We had two crates of beer this time. Our beer intake has gone down but my tolerance has certainly gone up.

*George and his mates*

*Very very gay*

*Lady Gaga! slurps*

*Awwwwww*

After almost 6 hours of singing, we decided to have supper. KFC was our next destination and I just can't get enough of the delicious Fried Chicken and Cheesy Wedges, Orgasmic!

*Awesomenest I tell ya*

Good Boys gone Wild

2009-09-12T17:14:00.015+10:00

Last night was a night to remember. Had a magnificent dinner outside with me mates. These few days, I've burned a huge hole in my wallet. And this time it's really bad. I have spent almost everything on entertainment which means no new clothes, shoes, accessories, etc. Oh well, most importantly I had a great time and manage to meet up with my friends.

*Massive meal for 6. Six dishes altogether*

Dinner was concluded in less than an hour. Without wasting time, we head straight to the next club. The place was so empty when we reached there. Saw a couple of our old school mates and ordered lots of booze, 3 crates of Carlsberg to be shared amongst 9 individuals. You do the Math. Anyhow, the club didn't come to life until half past 10. People only started dancing when we polished the dance floor. The music was equally bad to top it up. There were only beats and not much music. Good thing booze made everything looks and sounds nicer so all of us had lots of fun indeed.

*Everyone when sober*

Then the 5% of alcohol from each can sets in and the whole world is spinning right in front of us. Everyone were dancing, singing, screaming, and taking photographs. That momentum kicked us into overdrive and the rest was history. We owned the dance floor!

*Nuts, anyone?*

*My sport buddy*

*Brotherly Love*

Everyone started getting high and did lots of crazy stuff which I am not going to describe in too detail. Will let the printed evidences do the talking. You can either be quiet or noisy, still or unsettling, or just pure evil.

Do not let the innocent faces fool you. We love to partay!!!

And Finally, some supper to knock some sense into our thick thick skulls. But I had to beg to differ. We still remained high throughout the early hours whereas Aaron Tan puked twice before arriving home safely.

Next up, karaoke...

Final Destination

2009-09-11T13:45:00.002+10:00

Dropped by the movies for the second time in four days. This goes to show how bored was I. Neh, I met up a couple of friends and watched the movie for like 25% of what it normally cost. I've watched all of the Final Destination Trilogy before this. I was quite impressed with number one and two but the intensity died by the third. Final Destination 4 was no different. First time watchers may find it gruesome and kinda interesting but the whole plot was somewhat predictable. Final destination is about a chosen kid who had premonition about the future looking at how his friends and strangers would die. He did save a couple of them but skipping death's list only makes their death more interesting or weird. Survivals from the initial death scene would die one by one in some horrific manner. I'll spare you the details but if you're a gruesome fan such as myself, we'll just stick to 'SAW' instead. Final destination is not getting better but I do hope the director from the first one does come back to complete the final sequel. Overall 8/10